Nothing To Muse

A blog for musing on many of life’s big questions about— race, religion, culture, sex, politics, ego, the nature of the human being, and God. This blog is not just limited to questions though, it’s really about sharing our various perspectives and considering things a bit deeper than we normally might. Think outside of the box~ or expand it.

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

The Makeup of a Man



Long time no blog. I’ve gone through soooooo much since my last post here that I have about 12 new articles that I will be adding to this site as soon as I get some free time.

Today however, I’m just going to blog my media list, as a friend of mine from work was curious about of few of the interesting books that I’ve enjoyed (warning: it’s mostly non-fiction).

These are not just good reads, mind you. These are what I consider to be the BEST selections from the huge amount of media that I’ve come across throughout my life. And looking back, I realize just how much these things had a significant impact on the way I think. This media, coupled with my own life experiences, has really helped to shape who I am today.

I will continue to update this post with newer finds as I further muse on the near-infinite mysteries of life, ad infinitum. Well, here they are in no apparent rational order:


Video Documentaries

The Century of Self

The Trials of Henry Kissenger

Richard Dawkins Talks and Documentaries

http://video.google.ca/videoplay?docid=8068309038544717701&q=Richard+Dawkins

http://youtube.com/watch?v=Xe7yf9GJUfU&mode=related&search=

http://youtube.com/watch?v=qR_z85O0P2M&mode=related&search=

The Root of All Evil

Why We Fight: Documentary on U.S. Military

The Corporation

Joseph Campbell and the Power of Myth

Bruce Lee: " A Warriors Journey"

What tha Bleep Do We Know?

The Elegant Universe

What We Still Don't Know

Waking Life

Spike Lees "Jim Brown"

The Rise and Fall of Jim Crow

The Federal Reserve

The Secret

Sicko

Books

The 48 Laws of Power

On Intelligence

The Selfish Gene

As You Think (As A Man Thinketh)

Think and Grow Rich

Psycho-Cybernetics

Rich Dad, Poor Dad

The Story of Philosophy

The Richest Man In Babylon

When Things Start To Think

The 33 Strategies of War

The Art of War

Beyond Feelings: Guide to Critical Thinking

The Kabolyon

The Cashflow Quadrant

Smithsonian Human

Smithsonian Earth

Illusions

Johnny Seagull

The Singularity is Near

Genome

The Origins of Virtue

Robert Mekee's STORY

Sites and Articles

How To Be More Productive

How to Be Creative

Wicked Problems

Alfie Kohn

Audio

The Power of Now

The Power of Intent

Inspiration

Until my next post,

Love and Peace!!

-Kaz



Monday, December 12, 2005

Origins Of My Otaku: A Search For Culture- Part 2


Over the last 10 years or so I have been forming a growing distaste for African American [AA] culture; that’s as bluntly as I can put it. When I say African American culture, I’m not talking about hip hop or the history of the AA. I’m talking about the accepted means of social communication, interaction, expression, attitudes, and beliefs widely had by African Americans; though this does include hip hop as well.

What’s my problem? Well I assure you, it has nothing to do with being black. That’s something to be proud of. There is a great legacy that was built by the generations of blacks that came before us. America owes a great deal of its own mainstream culture and history to African Americans. This fact can hardly be debated by anyone.

My problem is with the current state of African American culture which is embracing baseness and calling it blackness; the culture shouting foul at the “white man” and leaning on “Jesus” to save them; the emotionally insecure and intellectually scarce society riddled with an amazing inferiority complex. But these issues are not ours alone, they just happen to affect a disproportionate amount of our populace.

However, consider the more expressive cultural examples in the areas of language, arts, music, dance, and so on. Outside of language, African Americans thrive in these arenas. Unfortunately, at the moment, the lights of music, dance, and media arts are shone primarily on “commercialized” hip-hop, which has in turn, transformed the perception of African American youth and culture (as well as many other cultures world-wide) and has gotten them to value material wealth and guns, fast woman, and easy money, thereby cannibalizing any merit that might exist in the sea of glamour and ignorance.

This will always be the case with media though; it’s not an excuse. Every culture has entertainment of this type in some form. The difference is, American youth, being the liberal bunch that we are, actually act it out. Another issue is that American youth, especially AA youth, don’t receive a balanced ‘diet’ of media. Their senses are put under siege by ad after ad encouraging the decrepit lifestyle of a thug, gangster, or hoe.

Thirty Year Old Thugs

I remember being surprised when I discovered nudity, sexual content, and graphic violence were all acceptable to show on public TV in Japan. My first though was, “What about the kids? Won’t that mess them up?” After becoming more familiar with their culture and their media however, I discovered that because the Japanese have such a large range of genres and media outlets, Japanese youth are not likely to be brainwashed in the same way that American youth are. Instead there is a strong educational and business slant that is promoted in the Japanese culture.

Because of this focus on their scholastic/professional life, there is really no time for Japanese Youth to be overly influenced by media on TV. Instead, their parents and their communities demand that they to do their best in these areas. (This does lead to other problems in their society however, such as a significant amount of stress, health disparities, and death from overwork; they actually have a common word used for someone who works themselves to death- karoshi).

Contrast this with the typical American youth who spends the majority of their days plopped on the couch in front of the tube, listening to music, or playing games (computers and the internet now allow them to do all three at once). It’s the idle hands theory and corporate marketing campaigns depend on it.

This blitz strategy works exceptionally well if the target audience has insecurities about themselves (such as their race), is predominantly ignorant (as in illiterate and looking for an excuse to cover up such a weakness), and is poor (feeling as if they have less than others and need to act out to cover these insecurities or embrace them, in the “I don’t give a F&@K!” sense).

But so what, it’s a teen thing right? I mean, we all go through those times at some point in life, right? Sure. It’s just that African American youth tend not to grow out of it; hence the thirty year old thug phenomenon. The image and culture of the AA is further degraded by the fact that AA teens are having children, most of who end up fatherless and get sucked into the same mayhem at an even younger age. The cycle just continues.


I Had A Dream: Black Power In The 20th Century

Imagine being driven into a wall at full force by a fire hose blasting you at 200 psi, disintegrating your clothes and gradually eroding your body to lifelessness. Now imagine if that was your grandmother being subjected to that same crowd control for simply standing on a sidewalk demanding the basic human rights that you enjoy now; you know, simple things like not being forced to work without pay, or the right to prosecute the persons who hung your pregnant wife from a tree, you know, simple things.

If you can imagine that, then it wouldn’t be far fetched to imagine that the child of your grandmother might hold certain reservations about the group of people who did that to her. Furthermore, it’s not too far out there to think that you and your children and you’re children’s children will hold these same views in the back of your minds for as long as there is a remembrance of it.


If you dramatize my little example and multiply it by a factor of 100,000, this should give you a clear indication of where the root of the animosity between the black and white races in America originates. Slavery; oppression; genocide… These things sound harsh and they were in fact harsher than we can imagine. We’re spoiled today by comparison.

Due to the long history of slavery and inequality, the AA community began in a wounded and inferior state and has since then been lagging behind the rest of America, trying to catch up. It should be no surprise then that the voices for issues concerning the AA advancement in society are being drowned out in a system originally designed on top of their backbreaking labor. It will take much more time and energy to change that fact.

In that process for change though, there exists another segment of the AA population, one that originated from the era following the love and peace, Vietnam, Nixon-Kissinger days— the Pro-Black.

Feeling the need to reshape the image of Black America, the many pro black groups, including but not limited to: The Nation of Islam and the Black Panthers, began an underground movement in AA communities to educate and lead their members towards the betterment of their people. There are many instances where this has been the case. African American communities found in cities like Atlanta, Charlotte and so on, are much more developed and you are sure to find the pro-black groups established and thriving in those productive areas.

I’m all for these positive aspects. There is nothing wrong with helping those who need to be helped, especially in your own communities. However, even in these productive movements towards change, the animosity against the “white race” remains a central point of reference used to bind the parties together; the rancorous and bitter feelings that the children of each race inherit from their ancestors endlessly propels the conflict.

The empowerment of people is my goal as well and I can respect anyone for working towards that. However, I think the focus on who is at fault is one that needs to be pushed aside. It really doesn’t matter who is at fault at this point. It’s much more about what needs to be done in order to fix the problem. Finger pointing is something that the weak and insecure rely on; acceptance is a virtue.

Just as corporations externalize their problems, AAs view their current state in the light of the offenses that took place in the past, hoping the government, God, or “somebody else” will take care of it all for them. They are not looking inside for strength, as their ancestors once did to take a stand; they are looking to place blame and reap the rewards without doing the work. And doing the work requires focusing on the issues at hand, not the issue from another era; though those issues should never be forgotten and always taken into consideration so that we don’t make the same mistakes.

It should also be noted, that if you are not part of this blame game, there is obviously something wrong with you, at least that’s what I am told…

With this segment making up the other predominant AA culture, there is little room left for the peace loving, intellectual, race-fraternizing, non-Christian, honestly expressive Blacks like me; we don’t act “black” enough.

This brings me to my main point. If African American culture is currently one predominantly based around this idolized “nigga” (their word, not mine), the thug savage, or the angry, political subversive seeking to reprove white society for slavery, what happens to the other members of this pseudo-culture who fall outside of these overwhelming segments? We get swept away by other cultures, of course.

FUUUUSION!!

The easiest culture for AA’s to get abducted by is Anglo-Saxon culture. For the most part, African American culture, in any form, is still largely based on Anglo-Saxon tradition. This might have been a strange and surreal contrast at one point in time, but as we have all seen, westernization is real and many-a-countries have conformed. Yet, countries like China and Japan still haven’t lost their sense of culture; where as when African Americans assimilate they become completely detached from their origins all together.

Division, assimilation, reformation, or integration. With globalization on the up and up, I think the AA culture will head into one of these four directions, if not a few.

Division- A large enough segment of the AA community will develop a coherent and self-reinforced culture allowing it to stand on its own outside current American standards or traditions. It would be interesting if it included the development of culture specific language. The Tibetans come to mind.

Note that this is already the case to some extent. The only thing is, most of the AA communities are spread out and confided to relatively small communities or ghettos. They tend to be more bound by the media of AAs (including newspapers, magazines, TV, music etc.) than by any sincerely developed cultural traditions.

Assimilation- American culture conforms to current AA culture standards or vice-versa. It’s unlikely this will ever happen, but it’s interesting to note that assimilation is active amongst all cultures during this era of globalization. Hip hop has also been a large part of that assimilating force. The basic idea behind assimilation is standardization, which can be scary or harmonious depending on how you look at it.

Reformation- Similar to the concept in division, except a new culture is not developed; the culture itself is reformed from the inside out. I think there is a higher possibility of this happening, given the proper economic and social conditions; when the majority of AA’s are at least shoulder above the poverty line and they get off the race train to focus on the real issues.

Integration- The most likely scenario. As globalization occurs, nothing of particular cultural significance will develop within the AA community. They will just become another market on the ven diagram to have the trends they set fed back to them or hi-jacked by other cultures completely.

This is the current state of things and the reasons for it are many and varied. That’s another rant for a future post though. My main point is to highlight the state of AA culture and to pinpoint my distastes with it in contrast to the abundance of culture I find in the Japanese society. This helps me understand why I may be so attracted to Japanese culture.

That being said, there are things in current AA culture I do enjoy including the idea of “soul” or rhythm; to be smooth and confident in body and form. That’s a valid cultural development I think (and one that the Japanese definitely seem to lack overall). There are many more and when I can find them I hold them up as shining examples. Alas, they are too few and far between for me.

What Culture Does For Me

The interaction amongst and between groups of people is marked by elements of culture. The Japanese bow, the French kiss, and African Americans slap hands and bump shoulders. The roots of such established cultural trends run deep through the community and give them an accepted social interface to deal with everyday human activities.

Initially I was one with the AA community for lack of exposure to anything else. Although I am proud to be what I am, my nature is a curious one and I am attracted to the strange, exotic, and different; not for lack of love for self, but for a deeper love of life and all it has to offer. When I crossed cultural boundaries though, I began to compare and contrast and discover different things in each culture that I have a personal preference for. Thus I began to assimilate the cultural features of the Japanese that interested me and replace the AA cultural features that I did not value.

This is where I started to see the disproportionate shift of AA cultural traditions to Japanese ones and thus why I have performed this examination. After going through these cultural elements, I found that the AA versions of them were either underdeveloped, contrived, or un-meaningful (i.e. sagging pants, use of self-derogatory terms, disrespect for women, compulsive need to stand out or otherwise be “hard” etc. etc.).

Because I am consciously aware of this issue, it makes it hard to interact with the AA culture in the way they currently want to interact with me and I become an “other”. So my question from there was should I put in the work to try and change the culture or simply keep developing my “own” culture based on the principles of the many cultures that exist. As usual, I decided to stride the middle line and do both.

It All Comes Back To Me

I have ideas about how I can help effect a change in the AA community as well as the global community through education (which is one of the major sources of the problem in AA society). Education will help develop the AA culture and perhaps can bring a significant value to it, which I have yet to see. But the work that will hold those answers and methods will be all inclusive (Seda) and for the time being I must continue to expand my own horizons and perspectives to establish the principles I want to teach. So I’m off to take the next step. Kanarazu! [Without Fail!]

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Origins Of My Otaku: A Search For Culture- Part 1

Recently I’ve been going through another one of my self-explorations, trying to understand more and more about myself by asking questions about why I do or enjoy certain things. After watching Densha Otoko (a fun and original Japanese drama series), I started to wonder… Why exactly DO I like Japanese culture so much?

Throughout my life, I had given myself lots of reasons to appreciate Japanese culture and they all had to do with my living in Japan at an age where I was too young to remember what it was really like. For instance, my childhood was filled with the re-telling of stories from my mother about how the Japanese “saved my life”.

As the story goes, when I was younger, I came down with Meningitis and I needed surgery in order to be saved. However, the American military base in Okinawa where my parents lived did not have the resources to perform the surgery, so I was taken to a Japanese hospital that did. In addition to needing surgery, being that I was less than a year old, I also needed a blood donor. Unfortunately my parents had recently come down with the flu and decided it was best not to give me blood in their condition, so the Japanese had to find a semi-rare AB+ blood donor from the population, and fast!

In the end, the operation was a success (obviously) and at my most vulnerable and impressionable moments of life, I had been rescued by and blood sealed with the Japanese people.

For most, this might be reason enough to appreciate them. I admit it is one of the factors, but it is not the major one.

As I grew up and continued to hear more about my seminal life in Japan, I became more interested in the idea of growing up in a far away place. Our house was garnished with relics and portraits, dragons and kanji, statues, katanas, and straw furniture. Its influence was everywhere around me and if these objects had an origin in Japan, then that origin must be like my second home.

The Allure of Anime

During my early school years, I didn’t think much about it. I was too young to understand culture and to compare my own with that of anyone else, so people in general just kind of blurred together; as kids we would be more biased against outstanding oddities, such as overweight classmates, cooties, and the sort of playground drama that forever scars fragile minds. It wasn’t until late middle school/early high school that I would come face-to-face with Japanese culture again, in the form of anime.

I remember the day exactly. My friend Kevon and I were board and wanted to rent something from the Video World down the street. At the shop, we tried to sneak over to the X-rated section as we had always done, just to sneak-a-peek. However, on our back route there, we came across an isle we had never seen before. Stopping to take a glance, I picked up a box with a blue-green, power-ranger-monster looking character on the front. The title was “Genocyber”.


My friends and I had just come out of that power ranger, Fox TV phase, but the art on the box looked so cool we just had to check it out.

After taking it home and watching it, our jaws were officially one with the floor. What, what, what? There’s cursing, and blood, and sex, and violence! OMG! This is AWESOME!!! Our hormone heavy, teenage minds were engaged to anime from that moment onwards. (I should note that this anime was unmarked when we rented it in the store, but later, I found that it was suppose to be in a section for NC-17, oh well ^^”).

As with most habits developed at a teen age, our indulgence of anime became second nature (obsessive compulsion if you will); we rented anime almost daily. After a year or two, all my friends and I had seen just about every anime of every type that was out in the U.S. at the time. We couldn’t get enough.

It would be less than a year before anime would start making waves in America, mainly with the introduction of Dragon Ball Z. It was now an integral part of our little culture and even Wu-Tang and other rap groups were making references to anime like Ninja Scrolls and the well known western releases. It was hard not to find someone from our local community who wasn’t interested or didn’t know about anime (and games).

Formalizing the Fad

In high school, anime and games became my pastime and the past time of the people around me. It wasn’t something we even thought about and it didn’t interfere with other perceived “social necessities” of the time, such as sex, parties, and drag racing. Just as one would wake up, eat, and carry on with daily activities, it was just as natural to come home, flip the switch on the Playstation or pop in a new anime to relax.

For most people, the buck stops there. They either go off to college/get married /get a job and don’t have time for as many leisurely activities or they remain in the same mediocre cycle carried over from their high school days. I, on the other hand, was about to experience a renaissance in my consumption and appreciation of media that would revolutionize my perspective of it.

Being who I am, I decided to pursue game design as secondary education. I have heard many horror stories about people who made the same choice and winded up getting shafted by sorry school curriculums just looking to make money off of a new fad. Fortunately, that was not my experience at all. I had amazing teachers, friends, and an exceptionally dream like adventure while I was in college (the details of which you can find here).

One of the major changes that took place for me however, was the cross over from Occidental culture to Oriental culture. By the time I returned from Canada I was an Otaku in the sing-along, pose and dance, Japanese-everything kind of way; not just of anime, but of everything; lifestyle; mannerisms; and all the features of the society and what it was projecting.

The ‘Hyper’ Thesis

What happened? Well, too much to tell, but in short, I had been exposed to a large amount of Asian culture and media while in college, to such a great degree that I began to predominantly empathize with that culture. This makes sense; the more you expose yourself to something, the more it influences you and becomes a part of you. It’s subconscious really.

This is all well and good. However, what I truly didn’t understand was why it added to my happiness and sense of peace. Why did sushi make me feel all warm and cozy inside? A year or so earlier and I would have barked at the idea of eating raw fish. I hated learning Spanish and found foreign languages all together cumbersome and alien. Why then was I plowing on the Pimsleur and performing karaoke in a language so marked with innuendo and allusion? Why!? Why!? Why!?

The answer is not simple and there are many factors that influenced me, but there is one major factor that recently came to mind. It is one that I haven’t fully touched upon yet and might explain why I have grasped Asian culture the way I have.

I think I have an exceptionally strong interest in Japanese culture due to the lack of any perceived, equivalent value in my own culture— the “African American Culture”.

Purpose of Seda

Seda is my means of expression. It is my tempered creative, cognitive, and philosophical “Essentia” [essence]; a work uncensored and bold, in the sense that it is honest and un-commercialized, a rare virtue in today’s consumer oriented culture. I have many things to accomplish with Seda, but one of particular importance is to use it to effect a change in the world.

If I am to live and die without influence, that is fine with me. However, while I am here, I find it more productive to live for something. I want to live to empower people through my talents and skills. So my initial question was, how can I empower people and why do I feel they need to be empowered.

In short, I feel educating people can empower them; with information and perspective, they are better able to cope with the various aspects of their life, including topics of deep personal importance such as spirituality, health, etc. With a true education, they can become students of their own lives and find the means to develop their own talents and skills to reach maximum (honest) expression.

If I had to name the root cause of human suffering, it would be ignorance; ignorance of themselves and of their lives.

Most people do not understand their own motivations and have no sense of purpose; they are just going through the motions without really thinking about it. They use general terms like “spirituality”, “god”, and so on to cover up their ignorance and re-enforce their illusionary life based on sensory experiences. However, when a person obtains a greater understanding of him or her self, they also gain a greater understanding of life. This change or evolution in perspective fills them with energy and motivates them to “do” and to “live”, thus they are empowered.

Ignorance exists in its strongest form as “fear”. The fear of doing, of living, and of becoming is a barrier to entry and inhibits their personal empowerment. However with a greater and greater understanding of oneself (strengths, weaknesses, origins, and reasoning behind one’s perspectives), fears and insecurities, worries, and problems all begin to fade.

So by eliminating fear and educating people I feel I can empower them and thereby effect change in the world at large, which I believe coalesces with “some greater cosmic force” for “some purpose”. The force and the purpose will remain outside of my scope for now.

I would like to expand on a few points with clear and concise definitions.

Education. By educating someone I mean finding out what they know, what they don’t know, how much they know about what they know, and filling the gaps in between. By feeling the gaps, I don’t mean inserting information or perspective, rather I am talking about stimulating those areas of uncertainty and unknowns so that they can consider and fill them in for themselves. Furthermore, teaching them how to learn from life using the “science of teaching” will allow them to understand and explore their personal issues and challenges on their own to further their development. These are principle based and can apply to all sorts of people across the board.

The Science of Teaching. I define the science of teaching as the effective means of transferring information between one who knows (who has a practical, applicable understanding or awareness of a given subject) and one who doesn’t know.

It is currently understood that different people learn differently. To teach two different people in the same way would be a waste. Due to these multiple intelligences that exist, research and development of teaching methods that actually work is of critical importance to my goal. Interestingly, interactive video games/the computer could be the tool used to address the visual, audio, tactile, and special learners all at once; a powerful medium indeed. My research into the cognitive sciences and multiple intelligences has already begun for this step.

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Constructing God


Expanding on my previous post here , Bemused points out another reason why people might find the concept of God so necessary:

“You could also say that people make up their version of god because they are lonely. They'd like to know that no matter where they are, or what situation they are in, that there's someone out there who will never turn their back on them -- if they follow the rules.”

This made me think that perhaps everyone has their own personal needs that their religious or spiritual ideas must help them cope with. Also, consider this: people with a strong belief are more likely to have a stronger resolve.

For instance, let’s say two different people were being held at gun point. One has no particular spiritual or religious beliefs. They may more readily be fearful for their life. On the other hand, the person who has a strong belief or even just a strong determination (perhaps to protect someone that is with them) is more likely to have a stronger resilience to fear in the situation because they have a definite position originating from their beliefs.

This takes the idea of faith/belief and makes it some sort of hyper ability, but really it is just a change in perspective; another way of viewing the outside world. You can get comparable effects by stimulating specific brain functions or human emotions. However, I want to continue to explore the idea that there are as many different needs for god as there are people in the world. In fact, I want to make an experiment out of it.

I’m going to construct my god, right here, right now, just to test the theory. Ideally, the god I envision and the “rules” I create should give me a sense of resolution. They should answer life’s greatest mysteries, even account for detailed issues like why children have to die and how hurricanes and earthquakes fit into the equation.

Well starting off, my god has to be a female. I’m not really looking for a spiritually/politically correct, androgynous god, I tend to see woman as authority figures (remember, this god is here to make sense out of “my” world). I would assume all life came from her like I came from my mother, begot by some celestial phenomena that my human mind cannot yet grasp, but upon death I will know it all. So the mystery of my origin has now been defined and I am satisfied with it.

Next I’ll consider life and death. What’s the point of me being here and where will I go after I leave. Without getting too in depth, let’s just say I have a purpose that will be revealed to me should I make the proper choices or pass the challenges that god sets in front of me. It’s like a video game really. When I die, it is like hitting the reset button, I’ll return to god with no memory and be reborn in some form to “play again”. This could go on and on, so long as I am satisfied with the theories I concoct. But here’s where things can get interesting.

After I have created all the theories that explain the world as I have experienced it, what happens when I pass that on to someone else; someone who has yet to be influenced by other beliefs; someone, like a child? I mean, if it answers all the hard questions and it gives them something to believe in, then what’s to stop them from whole-heartedly believing it to be true? This is even more complicated because they don’t understand the origins. They have never had the opportunity to consider these things for themselves. They feel it is coming from a “higher” source or authority (their know it all parents) and so they pretty much accept it without question.

I could even start to weave in symbolism, making the god take a physical form. I could Create a plethora of allegorical tales emphasizing my ideology that would resolve life’s conflicts in detail (i.e. why babies die, why people have to suffer in horrible ways). It doesn’t really matter how ridiculous it is, if the child buys into, then as a spiritual ideology and as a god, it works.

Tack on two-thousand years and a lot of proselytizing and I’ve created the next great religion. Hey, it can happen and has happened in this day and time. There is a village out on an island in the south pacific that worships an American named “John”. They truly believe that he and America are their saviors and their holy symbol is the American flag.

They believe this because after living so long in isolation, they met a white man in strange clothes for the first time. He promised them that America would save them and deliver them to a better life. They think America is god and John is their savior. Each generation the kids get more emotionally invested in that idea so much so that they have built their entire life around this belief. But does it really matter if it’s true or not? Well, who is to say? You really can’t prove that “John” is not their savior and that America is not “god”, you can only argue what you perceive to be “the facts”, just like we can only argue that the Bible is simply a spiritual book written by men. We can’t prove or disprove that they were divinely inspired to write it by “God”.

I find it interesting that most of what people believe in today is the same as what people believed in two-thousand years ago. Even though we have gained more insight into the workings of the world and the capacity of the human being, our spiritual ideas are often ancient and unchanged. So while we fight holy wars over our aged gods (many of whom are saying the same things and answering the same questions in slightly different ways) or are abandoning them all together (due to the conflict and unease they create amongst human social interaction) I wonder if it’s too avant-garde to think that maybe we’d all be better off constructing our own personal gods.

So long as it satisfies you and tends to your fears, concerns, and questions, why not? There’s no way to really prove or disprove that any god exists and if everyone constructs their own, it would be a lot harder to fight over who’s is right or wrong heh.

-Kaz

Proving God


You know, I had one of those interesting thoughts the other day. I think the reason religion and spirituality are so alluring is because they satisfy and define unknowns. What happens when we die? Do we have a purpose? Who put us here? Why do men have a choice to act positively or negatively? Why do we even have the option to ponder about such abstract concepts?

I mean, there are no “logical”, “provable” explanations for any of these issues (so far). So religion and spirituality reverse engineer creation and answer or address these human concerns and us being human, we are comforted by that sense of knowing. It’s like we feel more connected to life or complete because we allow ourselves to believe that all the parts and pieces are in place.

So is it the mere belief of completeness that acts as the key to spirituality? I mean I could teach my child that this computer is god. It created us and the world and we will return to it when we die. If the child intently believes that, they may feel complete. They may live a longer, healthier, natural life because of the chemical effect that feeling of completeness and harmony has on their body, but does it matter if what they believe is necessarily true?

Humans have always scrambled for something to worship be it an idea, idol, or their source of food (i.e. Native American Buffalo gods are important deities). So perhaps the nature of our mind is simply wired to find such an association and satisfy that craving. I mean, it is really hard to determine if our beliefs will have any overarching impact on the world outside of our own actions stemming from our spiritual ideology.

Using myself as an example, I tend to think balance plays a key role in the governing of universal forces on a grand scale. Although I can’t prove it to be 100% and absolute, I feel that when I do something “negative”, something “negative” happens back to me and the same holds true if I do something positive”. Of course there is no way to accurately prove this, because sometimes the negative or positive feedback may not appear instantaneously.

At times it appears to work like a cosmic credit card, storing my Karma points and dishing out justice and mercy based on my collective karmic history. If I charge a small negative action today it might be concealed by a greater positive payment. If the negative charge was a bit too large, I may incur fees on that and still reap the benefits of the positive payments I made. I’m not even going to get into the complexities that interest might bring. Though just for a fun second, imagine if the universe had its own interest rate hikes based on a larger flow of positive and negative “markets”. That would mean there would be times when your negative actions could really bust you and other seasons when you get rewards and bonuses just for making your regular positive payments. (Ha! That would mean I have an A+ credit rating, universally speaking heh heh heh).

This is all just an analogy of course. The point is, in my mind I have it all worked out. I have taken the time to consider many variables and somehow devised this system that explains “most” of what takes place in my life. So to repeat my initial question, does it matter if it’s true and how could it even be tested, proven, or disproved in anyone else’s life outside of my own?

There are many theories around that attempt to explain this perspective. One is solipsism. It basically states that reality is subjective and that you are everything there is. There is not even a way to prove that anything else really exists. The twist on that is Panpsychism or the idea that everything—including you— is consciously one and the same; a sort of schizophrenic organism full of amazing contradictions and harmonic subtly. Crazy.

If you’d like to explore some of the prevailing theories around, here are a few interesting links with more information:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Solipsism

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Panpsychism

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Animism

-Kaz

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Systemaniac

As a manga artist I have a goal to develop my own unique style; my own special techniques and sciences of representation. I plan to initiate that journey once I have mastered the basics of manga and storytelling (some years from now). Yet, the subject got me thinking. Just how would I create my own style? Not something simply derivative of the myriad influences I have enjoyed throughout my life (anime, RPGs, and the like), but something that would accurately project my unique ‘mode’ of thought; something that would realize the color palette of my dreams and resonate with the frequency of my imagination. As usual, I turned the mirror to myself and my life to find the answers. However, I wasn’t led to the answers I was expecting.

Examining many of the habits I have created over the years, I went through my usual, “why do I do this”, and “why do I do that” spiel. I first learned this technique from a critical thinking book when I was younger and found that it helped me to understand where I had acquired my ideas and also helped me determine if those ideas were really something I was personally interested in keeping. Since that time I have taken care to construct, destroy, and adapt ideas into my persona to form my unique identity. The most important step in this process was to honestly determine what I thought and felt about things and why I thought and felt the way I did.

Using that “Why, why, why?” technique more recently, it occurred to me that I have a certain obsession with anthropological and bionomic “systems”. Every anthropological system from the arts and sciences, to politics, economics, and religion intrigues me as do the ecological systems of Earth and the universe on every scale (quantum and relative). I have a craving to know how they work, where they originated, and most importantly how they interact with and influence each other.

I am interested in knowing why one person commits a crime while another risks life and limb to save a fellow human being. I want to know the root causes, motivations, potential factors, astrological charts, time of day, and in what era and under what social/political, economical influences the events took place.

I do not pursue these answers for the sake of understanding the particular persons or events necessarily, but more to understand the nature under which they were formed. I constantly seek to apply that information to help me understand people and events in general. Even something as simple as someone who is rather shy amongst a group of strangers versus someone who is gregarious and amiable amongst the sea of unknown identities interests me greatly. For me, these individuals are systems just waiting to be cracked and quite possibly hacked for my enlightenment and entertainment.

I might start by identifying that although they may have been molded by very different and specific experiences, their particular reasons for acting the way they do might be simplified to a few principle conditions that are shared by the human family.

Fear, for instance, could be the root cause for the actions of both introverted and extroverted personalities in the example above. The particular reasons they emote fear, however, could be endless; insecurity caused by fear of ridicule for instance or conversely, self-imposed confidence and an outgoing demeanor for fear of being socially unaccepted.

Likewise, compassion could be a motive, one that would require a more in-depth analysis, but just as an example, let’s imagine that the shy personality was actually humbled by the presence of other human beings (seeing them as fellow deities), and simply wanted to enjoy and reflect on their activities in solitude. On the other hand, what if the extroverted personality had the same views about human divinity and therefore wanted to participate with people whom they see less as strangers and more as beautiful gods with whom they may channel and exchange energies with.

Here then I have two principle motives to consider for the actions of these two individuals: fear and compassion. From these generalized starting points, I could then dig deeper into the two individual’s particular experiences that shaped them and come up with a detailed understanding of why they act the way they do (insert long Latin names here).

Anything else? Could there be any other root causes besides fear and compassion? What incentives could guide their actions? What about the mentally disabled? What about children who have yet to form concepts like psychological fear or the oneness of everything? Do they have a choice really, or is it already programmed into their genes? How do their genetics influence the formation of such concepts. On and on, etc, etc. This is just an example of how I think.

Taking this systemaniacal interest of mine and considering how I could turn it into a style did help me to formulate some interesting ideas. One idea I had was to uses pre-determined art and writing motifs as mini, self-contained systems that could be used in combination with each other to make up larger systems (or pictures). The larger systems would represent what we actually see played out in everyday life (a person committing a crime) based on the influences or lack there of, from other systems (system x- economical, system y-sociological, system z- theological, etc.).

But more than that, my exploration into my system based predilections also brought up another interesting thought…Is this even something unique to me or do all humans innately observe in this way?

From the brain’s perspective it certainly does observe and respond to the world based on pre-conceived or experienced concepts. Those concepts rely on each other to form larger pictures, so the concepts formed by the brain are systems that help it understand the larger system, which is life. The brain never stops trying to make sense out of things, even abstract concepts such as God. I believe it’s one of the reasons we have invented words like “stuff” and I also think that it’s one of the reasons we avoid not labeling other uncertainties. We crave a certain amount of order and clarity. We need a system of some sort or another. It must fit in somewhere, either by divine order or random chaos, it is part of “something”.

So if we are naturally systemaniacal observers, what overarching system governs our systemaniacalism? We are essentially the same organism as far as science and religion are concerned. So there should be a certain amount of overlap and similarity in the way we take in and rationalize information. This is a question that sort of leads back to my first post in this blog. To what degree are we in control of our own thoughts and actions and to what degree are they determined by outside “systems” such as the brain’s hardwiring, genetics, our environment, God, etc. And if we all share a similar systemaniacal way of thinking, why do our motives appear to be so different (or are they really that different at all when reduced to principle incentives such as fear and compassion)?

I’ve always had a personal belief that we do things for a reason. That everything has a function and fulfils it in one way or another; basically that everything balances out via the interactions of endless systems found in the universe. I admittedly stole this idea from nature and you can easily find it exploited in my I.P. work on Seda, which is my allegorical encyclopedia of universal systems. Therefore, I side ‘more’ with determinism than with the concept of free will (the subtleties of my position on this issue are great however, and I will discuss them at length later).

However, I have yet to settle on what I think the ultimate goal of these systems is. Perhaps all systems exist in conflict and harmony with one another simply to swing some grand pendulum back and fourth creating the vibration that perpetuates life- A universal heartbeat kept alive by the activity of its many corporeal components. I don’t think it is something I will ever truly know, but it’s fun to theorize about at least. Perhaps we are just God having fun; observing ourselves from the inside out. Therefore my unique style of expression wouldn’t be unique at all, but simply another facet of the universe; another version of the Systemaniac trying to crack its own code; for fun and perhaps more intriguingly for profit.

Friday, September 02, 2005

Doesn't Matter If You're Black or White?

This post was written by another member of this blog who has yet to actually register for an account, so I've been asked to post it for her. Cheers- Sage


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Don't matter if you're black or white eh?

So what if you're neither black nor white? A long time ago, I was sitting on the couch with the TV tuned to Oprah. Tiger woods was on. I didn't really know who he was at the time. I didn't and still don't follow Golf or any other sports, I prefer to play them. I was relaxing, half listening to the show when I managed to catch Tiger's response to a question Oprah asked. He said (paraphrased), "I don't consider myself black."

My attention snapped into focus on the TV screen. Now I don't remember much, but what I did remember was the backlash to that answer in the news and Oprah's follow up question, which was something like, Are you sure that's what you want to say?

As a person who is mixed (black father, white/Indian mother) I was very aware that I fit into neither race. In West Africa, where I was born & grew up, people there are actually the color black. To them, my brown skin was more white than black. The curly hair stood out like a sore thumb too. One of my earliest memories is of being mobbed by a pack of black school children, and being surrounded and exclaimed over by excited kids. In those parts, a live white person was a rare and foreign animal.

In North America, anyone would look at a picture of me and say black without a second thought. And that was shocking to me, when I first arrived to North America. People here considered me black, wow. I was very uneasy. I was being told two different things by two different cultures, neither of which I was fully a part of.

As I grew up in North America, I learned to ignore and eventually become indifferent to the labels. I never took part in any conversations that went too deeply into this topic because I was well aware of the Tiger Woods effect. Within me, I was well aware that if I were to step back into the home of my childhood, I would be seen as closer to white than black. And because I grew up with an African culture, I don't identify with African American culture either.

And so? What to do? The identity crisis was too much. For me, I ignored it until I was ready. My sister embraced African America culture fully, and my brother? Well, let's just say he’s doing better now.

To say that I’m black denies part of me, denies my mother’s culture. To say that I’m not, sparks outrage, as Tiger found out. My answer? I’m neither, I’m both. I prefer the middle way, the paradox that is both true and untrue.


-Bemused

Sunday, August 28, 2005

At The Whims Of The World: Do We Really Have Free Will?

We interact with reality using our senses, which are controlled by our brains. Our brains process the sense information and our minds create a concept out of it. Love is good. Hate is bad. Fire is hot and ice is cold.

Over time the exchanges between the senses and the mind, wire the brain with an emphasis towards specific channels of sensory/mind relationships, which creates our habits and finds form in our actions that influence the world in which we live. This mind/sensory connection then becomes genetic and can sway future offspring towards similar mind/sensory states….

To what degree are we like sophisticated machines then; deterministic animals acting in accord with a pre-programmed “system”? And to what degree are we free? Free will is determined by our minds, which is relentlessly at the control of our senses and emotions, so how can it be completely free? Emotions are deterministic. They are programmed responses created by the brain; the same brain that has been set on automatic after centuries of species-specific conditioning. You can say you love someone, but what is love? Is it the emotion you feel? Well that’s just a chemical reaction in your body causing you to feel that way. It’s nature’s innate system activating and taking control.

Whenever you think about love, your hypothalamus gland automatically releases peptides into your bloodstream that cause you to feel positive or negative feelings depending on your idea of love; a concept built and shaped by social determinants in your life and electrical signals that have been tying neurons together since your inception. So do you really have free will when it comes to love or any other decision for that matter?

All decisions are made based on emotion and experience. As much as we’d like to believe we are rational, logical creatures, for the most part, we feel things out. Because at the end of the day, when we don’t have the necessary information to act upon, we have to guess, and guessing is at the whim of our gut feelings, which are pretty much pre-determined. This is the essence of personality. Different people have different life experiences that have given them specific sensory information, so the way they respond to a given situation could be totally different from one another, but easily predicted based on their individual characters. However, most people make the mistake of thinking they have made themselves who they are.

In most cases, people have been defined and molded into who they are by external sources and are already so solidified in their mind/sensory habits, they can’t even conceive stepping out of their condition to examine or reconfigure it. To break the system is to break themselves and not too many are willing to go that far

So at what point do we truly have free will? How do we know it’s even possible and not just anther concept wrapped up in the feelings of hope? Well I have a few ideas. I’ll be adding them into the comments section of this post.

Gives you something interesting to think about in the meanwhile.

-Sage